--11 November 1995--

Awak,

Dah lama kan kita tak sembang atau chat macam dulu?

Dulu,
Saya yg start dulu macam-macam.
Haha.
Kalau ingat, memang kelakarlah kan. Kalau awak ingatlah kan.

Mula daripada awak suka kawan saya and saya masuk campur. Then automatic kita jadi rapat disebabkan benda yg tak matured ni. And finally,

You are my brother.

After a few month,
You got your PMR's result. You said you got invited by SAS. I could say more but I just kept in silence.
I got home and I cried. Obviously, yes.
I am sad if you are not around. I just think of that. After few days, you've got caught. You cheated on me. You never lied before and it making me more sad. I text you when I got home, I said that you and I can have our own life. No more adopted between us. And you ask me why at first and said okay. A few weeks after that, you moved to your boarding school. teknik. I still cried till the day you replied my text said that you are okay and fine. you've got so may new friends and even you've got a crushed on someone. I felt happy and we've start to text back. Its temporary. I've text you and you didn't replied untill I stopped texting you cause I've known from someone that you've got your new number. depressed.

(Unmatured moment of me)

This year,
I saw you in canteen and it makes me speechless. I can't even think what to do then getting my food. You are busy with your chaos. You are helping your mum. I really felt like a rude one since I just passed by you. I didn't even say a word towards you. Shyness all around me. I am scared to start the conversation since your mum's there. And the time passed by, I didn't see you now either your mum. Ijust wanted to say I'm sorry and how are you.

that's all.

Haha.

Happy bornday awak,
Dah 19 tahun. You got your own life kan? You got your girlfriend. Your student's life and chaos. Your social network account and more. You are now a bit matured than before.

well, that's all. I feel a bit awkward since I just post it here, on my blog. letting people's read and I know there's a few that know who this wish goes to.

Selamat hari lahir.
saya doakan awak selamat sejahtera. senang dunia akhirat. dipermudahkan dan dimurahkan rezeki serta dipanjangkan umur oleh Allah SWT. Ingat, kalau awak jatuh dan sedih sekalipun, ada Allah penguat selain keluarga awak. Jangan tinggal solat, okay? Bye :)